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Concentrate

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      I wish I could show you how much my life is affected by nightmares. There are a lot of days where everything is fine. I can take a lot at that time, few things bother me. But I’m not having peaceful nights.

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       I have vivid nightmares connected to my service time. No, I won’t say what; just know that I wake up being completely terrified. I eventually become depressed. It’s a cycle and I dread it more than anything.

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         Daytime helps. When I draw, I find it odd that whatever emotion I felt in those dreams come back. A lot of good has come to me through art. But when I first noticed this trend, I stopped drawing. Completely.

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     Can you imagine? That’s like a duck moving into the desert! I just didn’t do anything that gave me a creative outlet.

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       Finally I slowly began to start drawing again. Other artists began to challenge me and welcome me.

     The nightmares started after an 18 year gap.

      I went to therapy. I even took some time as an inpatient when I became suicidal. I’m not ashamed to say I needed the help, badly.

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        Anyway I never will win that battle. I know that. It’s not a big deal anyway. I have goals about what I want to achieve that have nothing to do with who I was. I may not always be okay, but I can get past it.

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Them or You

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      It seems weird to see people stealing art to me. By stealing I don’t mean theft in the traditional way. I’m talking about claiming someone else’s credit and pieces.

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       I once had an experience that showed me how awful a practice this was, where someone in high school took one of my original pieces, traced it and begin to claim credit. Then he sold mine!

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      Needless to say I was very shocked and angry when I found out about this. I confronted my art teacher. You know what she said? “You shouldn’t get so attached to it”. That’s it. I laughed in her face and said “Of course. You steal kids art all the time, why should I expect a sham artists to get it?”

       Then I went out and beat the crap out of that kid. Yeah, yeah…life isn’t always about positive lessons. And I felt much better afterward.

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     I am a lot older now, but the lesson of that moment, over time, has only been reinforced. Just as there are fake soldiers claiming to be warriors, there’s always going to be faux artists.

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     If you are one of them STOP IT! Work at your craft! When I hear people put down hardworking artists who’ve paid their dues in thousands of hours of practice. It usually because seeing that level of talent makes them feel inferior. But everyone had to learn and get better. Hell, I still have a LONG way to go! But step by step I’m on the journey.

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      The path is a well-known one. So get on!

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Help! Squirrels!

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       Just a quick sketch of Dean Winchester from the show “Supernatural”.That is, if I gave him less forehead, lol! I’m actually getting ready to create a piece with the Winchester and Ventures. It’s going to be a two part image, juxtaposing supernatural against superscience. In the meantime I’m doing thumbnails with stickies☺

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      Hope you guys enjoy it!  I’ve got to get back to work. Later.

Reverse Joy

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    Try not to take things personally. I had a friend of mine share an old picture in which she was laying down in the tub.

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     I’ve done something sort of like this before, but this time I decided to leave the character human. I wasn’t sure about it, so I made this thumbnail.

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     Of course, it evolved a little as it went. The hair was easy since I’ve drawn in a comic book style before. It was creating the underwater effect that took a little consideration. Still, this was the time to try things out.

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Don't fear fuck ups

       I wanted her to appear innocent so I had to change her expression a tad…

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   ….but in the end it felt close to what I want my final image to be. In the meantime, I hope you like the thumbnail!  I’m leaving them all over my hometown ☺

Jump

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Happy customers equal happy artist!

      Well, I’m finally getting ready to do it. I’m going to start selling prints of my art!  It took awhile to build up a decent portfolio of work,  but I’m finally there.

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      Today I’m taking my more traditional work in to be scanned. My scanner is okay but it’s not large enough for anything above 8.5×11. Luckily we have larger ones at work. Plus our photographers are more familiar with reproducing images, something I haven’t done since art school.

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      Until then, it’ll be a few more images made. I’m trying not to scare myself off. This is my dream and I don’t want to fail at it! I’m not afraid to though.

It’s Too Bad About Me

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    I’m trying to keep my sanity lately. My usual cycle is to feel better,  stop my meds then feel worse. But the good thing about#inktober is that it’s helping me with my perspective.

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     Inking with brushes takes a lot longer than using pens! Still, I like knowing how to ink the old fashioned way.

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        Sometimes the backgrounds take me even longer than the main image. My real job puts me in hotels occasionally, so I know what they look like. That means this one was easier.

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        Oh and it will be nude. Did I mention that? Sorry I’m freshly medicated so my attention span is…off.

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Diss[connect]

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      It’s.#inktober! So for this month, I have to do a drawing in pen, marker or ink of some type everyday.

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     Of course,  I’m not going to post each and every one,  though you’ll probably end up seeing them all. Plus it never hurts to practice a bunch…

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      Its been tough though. First I injured a finger on my drawing hand.It became all swollen and discolored. The pain wasn’t too bad,  but I hated doing anything with it.

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         Then my roof fell in in my kitchen! Apparently it had been built wrong to start with and came down with a crash. I’m scrambling now to install a new one.

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     Despite all of the nonsense, I cranked out a picture a day without fail. More to the point I’m learning how to streamline my process.

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        So that’s it for now. I’m learning a lot about the business side of art as well. Hopefully I will be able to put it to use soon!

Internalize Your Love

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      Baltimore comic-con is coming up and I gave myself a commission for a new friend. I don’t get to goof off either;  I need to finish it by tomorrow!  So I’m trying to work on it as much as possible.

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      Of course I have no idea what kind of background I’m going to give it. I usually go to a person’s Facebook page to put those personal little touches on their art. So hopefully she appreciates it.

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      Plus, adding the grey background is necessary when the character has any white on them.  Otherwise you can end up leaving the area blank.

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      I’m nowhere near done! Shading, adding details and all while considering the background layout. Will I make it?…

Localized Love

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        A LOT of the time,  I draw without being conscious of it. It’s something I’ve always done. You’d get a better answer if you asked me when I started breathing.

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   This year I’ve started some major personal projects. I’m hoping to get one published, so everything about it matters. Still, I can’t make the part that just draws shut down.

    But I know how. All I have to do…is be happy.

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     When I’m happy,  I can’t draw. It means that I tap into negative energy to do so. I’m trying to learn to create without doing so, but it’s hard when the emotions have to be at the surface.

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     Of course, I can’t wait. So I feed the beast whenever it howls, and hope to work on my projects in between. It could be worse, right?

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Metal on Metal

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    So whenever I have to deal with the public (i.e. humans) I become a nervous wreck. It’s not that I lack confidence; they are mostly slow and unsure themselves. It makes for difficult interactions when you realize that the person is afraid of you.

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Ok, maybe a shave and haircut and smile would help...

     That makes it extra special when someone says yes! So I met a wonderful young lady who bravely agreed to let me photograph her for a drawing.

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     The entire thing was done during the train ride and presented to her. She was ecstatic!  Plus I received a lot of comments about it. A good day all around.
      Now I need to do a little portfolio padding. So I’m going to be doing more complete images, including backgrounds. Here we go!

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Happy customer!