I’m trying to draw away a dark cloud that is trying to settle over me. I might succeed; it’s worked in the past.
There’s no guarantee that it will though. But motivation is motivation,and even though I try not to tap into negative emotions for my art anymore, sometimes it helps.
But you can’t stay there. It’s a loop and the only real way to break it is to do the things that you don’t feel like doing. Upbeat music. Time spent outside. Go online and listen to jokes or comedy clips…
What’s the weirdest day that you’ve had so far this year? Mine was Sunday and it involved This picture…
So, when I draw publicly, I usually meet two kinds of people: those who love my work and others. Well I met a new version of human, the student artist.
God help me.
I had a wonderful young lady with horrible self esteem sit right next to me and begin trying to draw the EXACT SAME PICTURE. I didn’t say anything. I let it go.
Then she nudges me to ask for paper. I looked at her and handed her one sheet of my marker paper. Not happy about it, but it wasn’t worth making a scene.
Then she tried to grab some markers.
I took them back and told her that this wasn’t group activity. So she screamed at me and threw her coffee and left.
I have no idea why it happened. It definitely killed my mood. I actually had a girl ask me if my girlfriend was okay! I explained that I didn’t know her and that she was taking my supplies. She didn’t seem to believe me.
It has been EXTREMELY hectic for me lately!! I’ve done something that I have wanted to for a long time; I’m an artist now, you guys!
I left my job last month. And to be honest I was pretty terrified. Actually, you can make that present tense, because I still am. With all the nonstop working and commission begging, being freelance has lost some of its luster.
If it were guaranteed it would definitely be easier. But at some point in my life I had to take a chance on me. I believe in myself and my talents.
So this picture… yeah, I’m doing characters for pay, lol. It’s not drudgery though. Actually, it’s kind of fun and exciting to do this one because its for a friend! Plus next month is Inktober, my favourite holiday.
On the face of it though is that I noticed that I still have people wanting me to draw for free. It’s weird. Do they think I shouldn’t eat or something? I can’t understand it. But being upset about it is pointless. I’m just going to keep doing my best.
To be honest, I’m another rung closer to where I want to be. My art matters to me. I’ll need to get a LOT more prolific in what is produced with no loss in quality.
Hopefully I can get picked up to do more covers and character designs. Wish me luck!
Kenichiwa! Greetings from Green Bay Wisconsin! I’m here on business, but that doesn’t mean I can’t show you guys a personal project. Let’s begin!
To be honest, this project is part of an overall series of sketches. It started innocently enough…
The more images I’ve created, the more the character has begun taking on its own life and memories. In a strange way, it feels like I’m bringing an actual person into being.
Even though its great to enjoy the process of creating a character, sometimes you have to be prepared to let them go. When I was really young, I us to try to make creations that weren’t meaningfulstay.
They were mine after all; a bit of my ego and effort went into each one. So I held on and in doing so held back my growth.
Even when I learned better technique, I was still obsessed with applying them to failed creations! And because they wouldn’t work, I believed that they weren’t for me.
Well, now I know better. You can’t just let your imagination stop! Grow a character, give them something to say, but when it’s over don’t be afraid to hug them and let them walk away. Sometimes they’ll return more mature and better actualised. Often they’re gone forever. But the growth they’ll give you will never be forgotten.😊
Yay! I actually got permission to post my digital art! Maybe I was wrong to give the choice, but I feel that portraits are kinda personal.
I’ve been so busy with repairing my home. It’s a little over one hundred years old and it’s last update was in the 80’s. I’m not trying to go too modern, but things like floor sag and bad rafters come before the pretty stuff. Foundations first!
Maybe I should just enjoy this period of my life. After all, it hasn’t been this quiet in a long time. No impending doom, just everyday things. I should be content.
Ha! Who am I fooling? Even though it’s true, that’s just not my nature. After a decade of nothing but one emergency after another, there is no way I could fully believe that calm waters are ahead. But is that experience or paranoia?
I gave up on happy. It abandoned me. My world has been mostly grey with occasional flashes of color. I’ve come to accept it, even appreciate those rare instances.
Was I wrong? Could it be?
Here’s the truth; I WANT to be. I really do. I know it’s a little like giving up on life the way I live. But I’m not sorry. It’s my way of… I’m getting my affairs in order. That’s all I’ve been doing. Stalling in the hopes that it isn’t necessary, but keeping my distance from life so that I won’t mind parting with it.
Okay. I need to start doing more than getting by. I need to find joy in little things. Like my art. It doesn’t need to be complicated because now I know what I want!
I want to be.